still waiting...

I went to the home office for training.
Got my picture taken for the ID badge.
Yes!! I'm liking this!

Yet --
no formal offer, no paperwork to sign.

Did I miss something? Why is it taking so long?

Financially I cannot hang on much longer.

I feel as though I'm in the doldrums:
no wind around me, no current beneath me, no shoreline in sight.

I re-read the words I've written. I know they contain truth.
Why can't I connect with those thoughts today?

Then,
from deep within,
these words:

"Be still and know I am God."

And in the stillness I am aware on a deeper level that there is movement that I cannot see. There is the air I breathe and the current of life within.
Just because I can't see the shoreline today
doesn't mean I'm adrift.

It means I am still.

I am waiting...

happy dance

It's over.
In a matter of days I will re-enter the ranks of the employed.
I am so grateful and so relieved.
This pause in my professional life has provided hours of time for thinking about what has happened to me and processing what is happening in me as a result of this forced hiatus.

If I let my thoughts run unfettered, the words form images of
deep gratitude, humility, of peace in the midst of chaos.

Like a fast moving stream, trust and faithfulness tumble over the rocks named
hope and provision and protection--
the stuff you can count on when all other surfaces are slippery...

It's "music" is an intermezzo 1, a pause, if you will, between acts
as the new props and staging is set for another adventure...

Oh God, no one writes music like You!

1. "Intermezzo". n. 1. a short, light dramatic, musical or ballet entertainment between the acts of a play or opera; 2a. Music: a short movement connecting the main parts of a composition. 2b.any of certain short instrumental pieces similar to this

am I employed?

...so I answer the phone, the caller identifies himself and I say, "Well hello Mr.______".
He replies, "You're going to have to get used to calling me 'boss' again." I just about dropped the phone! I am so relieved!

We have had numerous conversations back and forth, the most recent of which was yesterday (6/2). I may be starting as soon as next week! (even better!) So I'm still waiting, but I have an assurance of employment which is a nice picture of what I will be doing in the coming weeks and months and that truly is a relief!

What will I be doing? Good question and one which I have only a sketch at present. I will be primarily doing the marketing for the independent portion of the business with Ash Brokerage. Rick and I have many contacts from having worked together before, so many of those will be re-visited and new ones formed. I am excited and so ready to be working again!

Stay tuned.....