still waiting...

I went to the home office for training.
Got my picture taken for the ID badge.
Yes!! I'm liking this!

Yet --
no formal offer, no paperwork to sign.

Did I miss something? Why is it taking so long?

Financially I cannot hang on much longer.

I feel as though I'm in the doldrums:
no wind around me, no current beneath me, no shoreline in sight.

I re-read the words I've written. I know they contain truth.
Why can't I connect with those thoughts today?

Then,
from deep within,
these words:

"Be still and know I am God."

And in the stillness I am aware on a deeper level that there is movement that I cannot see. There is the air I breathe and the current of life within.
Just because I can't see the shoreline today
doesn't mean I'm adrift.

It means I am still.

I am waiting...